when you look back

What would've been?

After talking to one of my guy friend and seeing where he is in life,
it made me wonder what would happen if I was still single.

looking back,
I think I would be very lonely.

I don't think I would put myself in any situation the way he put himself out to a girl like that.
Getting hurt over and over again. I mean, I've been there that's the thing. Not once, but most of the time.
there was jealousy, disrespected, disloyal, distrust... All the "dis"

I dated so many guys that I thought, is there something wrong with me. How come they don't want to be serious with me?
then i wouldn't be able to trust or love anyone.

Then I learn to love me and that I wouldn't let anyone hurt me, love me for me, because i am not going to change me anymore.

I'm so glad I am so happy with my man.
or else
I would still be dating around.

I guess I am glad that happiness found me before i would loose myself in a world of undesirable.

Looking back,

I made the right decision,
I am forever more will be in love with the man that i always wanted.
He loves me and I love him
and that's all that matters